I got an email on Tuesday to tell me I'd won a place in the Edinburgh Marathon.
To say I *won* it makes it seem like I was awarded it on merit. In fact I entered a draw in the ESPC which I found while I was waiting for me daughter to finish her gymnastics class. So it's nothing to do with my running prowess, and everything to do with the fact that most readers of the ESPC are probably too busy buying or selling property to enter competitions with silly prizes.
And today I redeemed the code I was sent and entered the Edinburgh Marathon on 27 May, just 8 weeks today.
What have I *done*?? My stomach is in my mouth just thinking about it.
I was not sure I wanted to do a Marathon, but when, a few weeks ago, I
found out that it was full, I had a bit of a twinge of regret. And that
seems to have developed from a twinge to an ache to a proper strain. And
here I am, stomach in mouth.
My safety net is as follows: entries for the half marathon - on the same day, which I did last year - should close on 19 April. So if I start training and it's really looking like I won't be fit enough for the marathon, I can enter the Half, and it won't have cost me any more because I won the Marathon place for free. So I could still back out and thintgs'd still be okay.
But there are a couple of things spurring me on. Firstly, I just called my blog "Anything You Put Your Mind To". So, how can I wimp out when there's a chance, an opportunity, to do this?
And also, I want to show my kids that it's all right to try, even if you're not sure you're going to succeed. A breakdancer came to my son's school assembly on Friday, trying to drum up interest for his dance classes (don't start me on advertising in schools, that's another rant entirely). The kids all clapped and cheered, and I wondered what my son was thinking. I worried that he might be thinking "I won't try that class because I don't think I'll be able to do it." And then I realised that this was exactly what I was feeling about entering the Marathon.
I'm off to read training programmes now, excited and nervous.